Crying & Belly Laughs

I am crying all of the time! I did not expect this. I knew that my hormones might be all over the place and that I may be emotional. I was more afraid of being mean and yelling all of the time. The only emotion I feel is tears!! I'm not even sad! I've cried for three days in a row now over silly stuff! I don't consider myself a crier, I really don't. These days it seems to take hardly anything to make me tear up, and when those tears rise, there's no stopping them from overflowing! I have a feeling this is going to make for several future embarrassing moments. No one likes to cry in front of people!

I just finished reading Belly Laughs by Jenny McCarthy. Positive points: it did make me laugh. She has a great way of putting a comical spin on the downsides of pregnancy. She was very blunt about everything that happened to her - and she seemed to have every problem associated with pregnancy! I did like her honesty and she always brought each issue back to the fact that every difficulty is worth it when that baby arrives. Negative points: She's a little vulgar for my taste. I guess it follows her style of comedy, but I could've used fewer cuss words. I'm also pretty freaked out about all of the things that can happen to my body: cellulite, stretch marks, acne, swelling, constipation, aches & pains, and on and on and on. Of course, it will all be worth it in the end. We are so excited about this little blueberry of a baby and I'm already ready for him/her to be here, but am certainly nervous about the side effects!

Today I am six weeks & five days. My "what to expect" app on my phone gives me daily information. Today is about cravings and how to be healthier with them. Although I haven't eaten 100% healthy since I found out about baby C, I haven't had too many unhealthy cravings. I'm definitely more interested in salty foods than sweets. I've been eating some wheat crackers and goldfish and bought some fudge bars for my occasional ice cream need. I don't feel like I've eaten terribly (except for the fairly large shake at McDs w/ mom the other day...), but I feel like I'm just getting poofier. I keep telling Mitch that I feel poofy. The scale doesn't show that I've gained weight, but a friend told me last night that I already look like I'm poking out. NOT what I had planned!

Two week countdown until our first ultrasound! So looking forward to seeing baby C for the first time! I am hoping to survive the next week...starting tomorrow I have two days in a row of summer school, then keeping my darling nieces Friday night, and then three days of summer school next week. I'm so looking forward to a week from now because then I will experience FREEDOM for about a month!! During that month, you will find me on the couch :)